Saturday, 15 May 2010

Stomach

I am ok now.... but the past 4 hours have been.. well..pants... the stomach cramp came to visit... and didnt wanna leave until about 10 mins ago.... after a visit to the...ahem....without being graphic... you cant force anything as it makes it worse... its a bit like rollercoaster.. pain pain.. like i wanna scream.. then..ooo i am fine... then....ooooooooo scream.... then fine.... glad i wasnt out though as it would have ruined my evening....unpredictable... as i have said time n time again.... oh now the feet gremlins have started... they must have felt left out....Oh Joy..... but tomorrow is another day...
and it could be worse.....

Thursday, 13 May 2010

Diabetic Depression

I have spoken to alot of fellow junkies about this... and you what i happens... its a part of the condition .. like taking insulin... like testing your blood... its gonna happen... book it in.... tells your friends and family about it... then... move on... dont fight it or ignore it... it really is a part of the illness.. just cause you cant measure it... don`t mean it dont happen....
Not that i get it of course.....;)

Our lives begin to end the day we become silent about things that matter."

Saw this quote and i think it just about sums it all up..

Our lives begin to end the day we become silent about things that matter

Monday, 10 May 2010

Blown away

I have to say... i am completely blown away by all the comments i have received about the documentary ..... for once i am speechless.... but to everyone who has taken the time to view it.... dont give up... dont give in... dont suffer in silence...you are NEVER alone.....xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

From a different angle

Sunday, 9 May 2010

Hypos..........

as i was so excited and nervous about the showing i couldnt really eat... ans the forgot to as the butterflies set in ... i ended up having a salad... at about 11pm!!!.. after a few beers to might i add....
I started to feel a bit funny sweating alot.... checked my sugars and yes.. 2.3 ... not good... and it crept up on me too.//.
i wouldnt say there are good and bad hypos ... but there are different types i think anyway...;)
This was a bad one.... hard to explain really.... but it does feel like someone else has taken over your body.. and although in your head you know everything will be ok... logic does not come into play... you dont just need sugar.... you crave it!!..you expect the people around you to know what to do... they can read your mind cant they!!!!as someone has told me "never asume" lol... when is enough what is too much... they do try and give you guidelines of what to eat.. but everyone is different.. and there are different types of hypos....sometimes it will go quick.. some times not... sometimes four gluco tabs is enough... sometimes 8.. then you have to be prepared for the "hypo hangover" ( i stole that from someone else)... your sugars will then go sky high.... and kinda screws things up for the next 12 hours.. well does me anyway..well sometimes....lol...

i am lucky enough to have people around me that will put up with my moods..which at the best of times i am a pain in the ass..
Love you Jo..;)

From a different angle..... the screening..

well... what can i say.. the evening was more than i could have dreamed of... you will have to see it... and make your own mind up.. but i shed a tear or 2 as did my beautiful Jo and i believe My best mate Phil and his gorgeous new friend Jan.... the fact that the girls found my story interesting enough to spend the past 10 months doing it./. it really has helped me see things in a different light... i was gonna say from different angle lol....
I am a very happy chappy at the moment... just need to get some hard training done for the challenge... the next big thing is the dress down day that RBS insurance in Bromley are organising .... that will raise so much awareness... again if one person gets checked.. or in the case of type 2.. watch their diet... or even if someone has another condition ... i dont wanna sound like one of those.. cheesy.. i am doing it for the people guys lol... as thats not me....i need this...