Saturday, 12 February 2011

the unpredicable

well... its be sooo good recently.... been talking about work and all that jazz.... and went to see the docs.. of all is going so well missy doc.... then what..... bad bad bad feet.... i mean crying stage... then next day.... bad bad stomach day,,,, i mean.... sitting here watching telly and the brain saying lee eeeeeee lets go out.... but the body saying noo oooooooooo stay here... my point is..... the hardest thing is the unpredictable stuff..... i can be cool one day and the next.. be in pain.. feet.... legs..... stomach... oh n by he way.. imagine everytime you eat you have an electric shock in your checks...... tbc......
hope your well....

i am for the mo.....

Tuesday, 8 February 2011

oh the pain

i find it really hard to explain the pain.....
just cause i do not cry n scream does not mean i am not in pain
after suffering with extreme pain for 3 years now its not about a pain free day its about how strong the pain is.... if that makes sense...
so i am never without pain... but the levels just increase or decrease and it something your body HAS to get used to....
today was a day of well i want to cut my feet off days...... and those of you who understand know... i was in asda.. and had to lay on the floor as my feet were so bad i could not even stand anymore... let alone walk... and pushing the trolley.. if i was not with JO i would have just left the trolley and left... ....
now as i write this,... is am fine n dandy.... but 3 hours ago...................
well give me a saw... and leave me alone..... and it would have been a diff story

just cause you cant see my pain does not mean i am not crying inside with agony.......