Wednesday, 11 January 2012

depresion

listen......... i have said a thousand times about this........the biggest men.... that harder the are.... it makes no difference..... diabetes..... its a fact.... you WILL get depressed... book it in..... expect it.... you try so hard to control it.... you follow the rules... carb count.... and whatever..... but to me it WILL happen... and the only way is is talk about it..... please guys n gals..... talk... talk .... talk..... sometimes i wish i followed my own advice..... xxxxx

Sunday, 8 January 2012

hyperglycemia/high blood sugar/not my fault/..panic..

the pump is fab but... if there is an issue with it it all goes downhill very very fast... when you are on injections... you have 2 types... short acting and long acting... i.e a baseline... but on the pump... its just one... the short acting that relies on the pump delivering insulin as its told.... anyway... for some reason or another.... i didnt get enough of mine today..... i dont want to go in detail as it will not make sense.. i will do a video... i just could could not understand why i was putting in so so so much insulin and it making no difference.... i am going to again do a vid to show how much i think i put in....anyway all good now... but.... geez.... heart goes so fast... then stops.... skips a beat.... mouth feels like ermmmm...tin???? eyes just close.... you just want to sleep... seeing things.... but in my mind i was like i havent done anything wrong.... i followed the rules.... again.... and again... but nothin seemed to work.... i ran a marathon... on my sofa...... thats how it feels.... actually.... i drank a bottle of vodka..... but didnt!!!!